Well then. It’s been a week since I’ve been back at AC and honestly I think I was just too busy even to write a short post up here. It’s been absolutely insane, I am totally shattered and all I ever want to do is go to sleep. There is so much work I have to do (and once I finish writing this then I’ll get down to that, but I figured it was time for an update).
Guess what? Going to the salon on Thursday, with Cardiff Girl and potentially another person. Oh, and Mari is going to come too and watch me and laugh. But I think it’s totally worth it. The Boy and I are a ‘thing’, people know about us, we’re exclusive, and there is no awkwardness between me and ‘Sheila’, which I’m happy about. Although I think she’s still under the impression that this friday (the 9th) was the first time that we hooked up. Which it was and it wasn’t? I mean it was the first time we did anything ‘more’ than kiss and I stayed in his room that night, but we did just fall asleep after a while. Just because I think we’re as shattered as each other, what with not going to bed until 1AM consecutively since we’ve been back.
It’s not good, but at the same time I don’t want it any other way. Well, I do. I wouldn’t mind if we actually saw each other during the day and if there wasn’t the slight awkwardness between us, but I’m hoping that will disappear with time. I can’t help feeling maybe we should have been better friends before anything happened, but there’s not much I can do about it now. He’s still the same person, it’s not as if he’s ‘changed’ – I just hope I haven’t, and if I have I’m going to make a conscious effort to revert back to the ‘old’ me that clicked with him; back when we were friends.
I think I’m just seriously over analysing these things because I really really want this to work out. God, I don’t know what happened to me. Everything was so peaceful this time last month… But I am beginning to understand what I have to do. Just be normal, just be myself, don’t over think anything. Let him go crazy with wondering what is going on and just enjoy it without getting all obsessed. Which sounds awkward, ‘getting obsessed’, but it seems to be what I used to do. Ha. Not this time, bitches.
In other news, everything is going well. Watto came down to see me at school and that was good, I think she enjoyed it. Friday night was a lot of fun but there were too many false rumours floating around about me – about how I hooked up with Raina, Hager and the Boy – and had an orgy in my room with them and Mari, and then had sex with the Boy in the day room. I mean, really. Where do people get this stuff from?
UHR. Also, there is much work to be done. French oral and TOK presentation on Wednesday but I’m beginning to know where I’m going with the TOK now, and I think I can get that all done. The only thing I’m really worried about is the IPP and there is a draft that’s supposed to be going in on Friday at 2PM and I haven’t even started the workshops yet – so I think I’m just going to have to make those up. Then there’s Halloween Sosh on Friday which should be fairly interesting (seeing as I have to dress up as a French Maid). I’m just hoping that amongst all of the things going on, I’m going to be able to actually get some sleep. And maybe go to the gym once or twice, that would be good.
Anyways. This post has been severely long. I’m out.
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