Sneezes

In the big, big room

with the carpeted floor

and the windows looking out,

the young fresh faces had

blurry eyes and blurry thoughts

from too many late night chases.

The front, they talk-talked,

about many of the introductions;

and the minds of the sat

just went blank

with the whisper of couldn’t care less.

Too much text and chatting mouths,

the bags under eyes tell all -

sniffly sniffly noses

and coughing fits…

Fresher’s flu might get them all.

Lecture No. 1

Today was my first day of lectures – I had a seminar for Drama for three hours, which was okay, and then an hour long lecture in a giant hall for English, which wasn’t as much fun.

Thing is, I don’t know that lectures are the way I’m meant to be taught. I guess at Uni you’re not meant to be taught anything (just given information and expected to do something with it yourself), but I wish I was. There were some really interesting points that came up in the lecture but by the end of it I was just really tired.

In other news, I’m about to shuffle off to bed; it’s good because I haven’t had a very early night in yet, and I want to be able to get up at a reasonable time tomorrow. Also, tomorrow is the day that my Across-the-hall-Mate Lyssie and I start our ‘regime’. I’ve had many regimes in the past, all in order to lose a few extra pounds, but this time it’s really serious. I’ve got my Skinny Bitch plan, I’m going to start really doing some exercise, and continue to eat healthily. No fizzy drinks, meat-free weekdays, no milk, and I really have to stop buying Hot Chocolates when I really don’t need them!

I’ve also written a new poem, so I’m hoping that my poetry writing is coming back. I’m pretty settled in my room now, and I like it here. If things carry on this way, hopefully all will go to plan; I’ll get a job (fingers crossed, I’m still hunting), I’ll start writing again, I will have a nice routine… and I’ll finally be able to live healthily and happily. I’ve got the people I count as my friends around me, a couple of AC mates to see whenever I want, and I’m going to meet a bunch of new people too! So all in all, it seems things are finally not so hectic.

First-Day Freshers

I arrived yesterday. Sunday, the 15th of September, I arrived at my University and began to settle into my accommodation -it’s pretty sweet, actually. That means, though, that today was my first full day of actually being in the new city, seeing things, and being a ‘college’ student. It was okay.

Strange, but quite fun. I went out at about 9AM and went to an International Welcome talk – just for the shizz and giggles – before going on a tour of the campus, meeting some fellow Drama/English students and a really cool girl (hereby known as Reader), and hanging with her. Together we went to the media talk and I think I’m going to be taking part in a lot of the media stuff – the newspaper, but I also found the TV stuff and the fact that you could potentially get on the radio really cool indeed. I then bought a t-shirt that’s going to give me access to one of the clubs tomorrow night before heading home… where I have stayed since.

I know, right? What kind of person stays in their university accommodation the very first proper night of Freshers? Obviously, I do. Then again, I can use the excuse that I’m still sick to get past that (although honestly, I was quite glad to have the night off). Last night wasn’t any better though, I was coming home about now to go to sleep before midnight. HA. What is wrong with me? It’s like I’m an old woman. But honestly, I just think there are so many better ways to meet people than to go out and get spasticated. I mean, you can’t exactly have a conversation if you can’t see the ground.

Tomorrow might be different though, so I will have to keep you up to date. I enjoy my room though, as well. It’s got a double bed and a little kitchen, bathroom, the works! I found it a little lonely this evening when I was eating dinner, because you’re kind of separated from the rest of the world, but I think that might have to be something I get used to. I’m not about to go dining al fresco every night just to have a bit of company!

But things are looking up, which is good. I was groaning and worrying about coming to Uni, because I didn’t have any expectations of it being particularly brilliant. As I was saying to Hager earlier, I think I’m just so bored of having to go through the motions that it takes to build relationships. I don’t want to build any more new relationships, I just want to have them. Saying that, I’m sure I’ll look back at this post in a couple of months and realise how silly all this complaining was. It doesn’t take that long to make friends, in hindsight.

It’s just that it’s hindsight for a reason.

Reserve Battery Power.

That’s what the computer’s running on, and I’m hoping to write this post before it conks out – once it does, I’m not switching it back on. I’m going upstairs, having a shower, getting ready for work and then if there’s time… maybe come back on the computer.

It seems at the moment that apart from work, the Screen is all that is my life. Unusually so, but the reasoning behind it is I’m trying to make a new site – theangryroleplay.proboards.com. It’s a site for me, but also my best friend (Canadian, DeNiro) because that was how our friendship bloomed. Through this roleplay, based on Michelle Paver’s Chronicles of Ancient Darkness. After 5 years, several arguments, late nights, blurred eyes, two real-life meetings and a whole bunch of drama, the roleplay is still going strong. Even more than that, it’s supposed to be reaching its climax, its most dangerous, darkest time, and we hardly write anymore. It really upsets me, actually, but DeNiro says it’s probably because our friendship has waned too.

It’s true, it has. We don’t talk as much, and I guess it’s just because our lives are getting in the way – in a way that they never used to, back when we were kids and things were easy. Childhood’s over, but we’re trying to carry on a story that began in childhood, just holding on with the tips of our fingernails.

We’ll get there. I know we will, because hopefully now that I’ve determined we’re going to Skype more and talk more, write letters and be back to the easy conversation that we once had – plus the fact that I’ve given the RP a re-vamp by introducing the new site which includes all characters, the other books, and such, we will get back on track and the RP will be finished.