Thursday, 6 February 2020

Sugar, Honey, Ice and Tea.

Things have hit the fan in a serious way. It's only day 37 of 2020, but this year so far has been the tallest roller-coaster I've ever had the fear and pleasure to ride. It's not all bad, sure, but it's pretty serious, and waves of panic definitely overwhelm me every now and again. The reason I think it's worth writing down the current going-ons is because I know for sure that I'm going to look back at this time at the end of the year and think Wow. That actually happened.

The year began on a high, with Ry and I getting permission to go ahead and finally - finally! - purchase a home of our own. A cute little one-bed flat in the south of the city, more expensive commute-wise but definitely cheaper than renting our current place. It was all going fairly simple: we got the broker, the solicitor, the house, the approval, the deposit, the mortgage confirmation, the insurance. We started the process, and everything was going incredibly smoothly. We even mentioned that it had been almost too easy, but our Broker said that this was how it was supposed to be. Only the bad experiences are the ones that are remembered. 

And then. Oh, then

Ry's company fell apart. No money, no funding. He woke up on the morning of his 25th birthday to discover that he wasn't going to be paid for the month's work, and that he needed to stop all future work because there was no money for future payments. Technically, he's not lost his job: it's just on hold. But his boss absolutely "expects" that he will get a new job before any funding can come in to keep his current company going.

God, and to think when I started this blog my biggest worry was whether boys liked me or not - now I have to deal with the fact that the Man in my life doesn't have a penny to his name, and that our mortgage application has just been shot out of the water and that we might not be able to get the house we've set our hearts on. 

We haven't told anyone on that side of the situation about Ry's difficulties yet. I don't think it's necessary until we absolutely know what's happening with him. But we will eventually need to tell them. I just hope that Ry will have some kind of interview or potential job lined up before that happens, so we can just say he "swapped" to a new position... will the bank except this? We don't know yet. But we have to keep our fingers crossed, and keep looking up. 

Manifest, manifest, manifest. 

Ten Years In

Weirdly, last year I managed to write more blog posts than the past three years combined - but still somehow only wrote for one month out of the whole year. Not only that, but the writing I did do wasn't even personal, or about me - it was just about my writing, and trying to keep writing in a much more constant way. I'm not saying I actually achieved that, but as we roll into 2020 I felt that it would be a good idea to actually share some of my accomplishments from last year. A chance to remind myself that I have actually achieved something, even though I feel like I'm constantly falling behind. 


  • Finished the first draft of a short play
  • Finished the first draft of a full-length play
  • Wrote, directed, edited and published three short films
  • Had a poem published in a literary magazine
  • Received feedback on a TV show idea from BAFTA
  • Gathered ideas for several other projects (including a new plot for R&OI)
  • Networked with a production company
  • Visited Madeira and Cyprus for work - including writing for CNT
  • Read about 10 books (more than I have in a while)
And the start of 2020 has been pretty eventful already too - I've already applied to three competitions, although it's doubtful I will actually hear back from them within the next few months.

Either way, it's onwards and upwards to better things!