Nope, I refuse.
Decided to read over my previous posts and I think that recently I have begun to sound like an utter twat. Come on, what the hell is wrong with you? Getting all gushy and confused – it’s just not right. The whole point of this year – the whole point of getting rid of all your hair, finding a new style, getting fit, being happy, releasing yourself from this rutt – it was all for you.
NOT for some one else; he cares about you, it’s obvious, but by God you’re making it strained. Stop being so all over the place and just talk to him as a friend. The same way you used to do before ‘everything changed’. NOTHING CHANGED. Or if it did, it was all in your head.
Yes, the dynamics might be different but surely it’s better to revert back to a time where it wasn’t so strange between you? Look at the way any Latino, any female friend of his acts – you’re setting yourself apart and it’s not making it any better. If you see him, see him, if you don’t – then DON’T.
Decided to read over my previous posts and I think that recently I have begun to sound like an utter twat. Come on, what the hell is wrong with you? Getting all gushy and confused – it’s just not right. The whole point of this year – the whole point of getting rid of all your hair, finding a new style, getting fit, being happy, releasing yourself from this rutt – it was all for you.
NOT for some one else; he cares about you, it’s obvious, but by God you’re making it strained. Stop being so all over the place and just talk to him as a friend. The same way you used to do before ‘everything changed’. NOTHING CHANGED. Or if it did, it was all in your head.
Yes, the dynamics might be different but surely it’s better to revert back to a time where it wasn’t so strange between you? Look at the way any Latino, any female friend of his acts – you’re setting yourself apart and it’s not making it any better. If you see him, see him, if you don’t – then DON’T.
This year is about you, about enjoying the last fucking 6 months you have in the most wonderful place you’ve ever lived, surrounded by friends that you never see anymore but really should. What ever happened to getting to know other first years? Or going out in the evenings with your friends? Stop revolving your life around him; it’s not important in the grand scheme of things. He will find you, it will work, but when you pressure it nothing good can come out of that – we know this, we’ve been there before. Let things happen naturally, the way they started out.
Don’t fuck this up like every other time you have done.
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