Bridging the Gap

It has been way too long, and way too many things have happened. To name but a few: Ryan at my house, two weeks worth, Green Man, Picnics, Hay-On-Wye, Grandparent’s house, Home, Uni, Call about a Job, Holy shit I work at Costa, I have a job, Alone in the House, New house, Lyssie’s here, Freshers Week, Back at Uni…

Then it’s just kind of been one long splurge. We are now 7 weeks in to Uni, and I’ve been in Exe for about 10 weeks. Had some good times, such as a club night called Detention, wore a corset for a Social and went to Cheeseys, saw a man smoke inside the Lemmy on a Saturday night. Spent a lot of time with Ry, which is all good. Halloween caused quite a stir – I went as a vampire queen with Ry as my human slave and ended up wearing a dominatrix outfit. I felt it was fairly classy, not too much skin on show, but I’ve had a lot of feedback from it. Good, all good, and it definitely was a confidence booster.

So much and so little seems to have happened all at once. I’ve not had time to write any of Recto, or any poems, or even written on here, which really frustrates me seeing as it’s basically what I want to be doing with my life. But I spoke to DeNiro last week (went home for reading week, it was great, I walked the dogs and had a bath. That was literally it) and she made me see that it is always possible to do more. Not in a let’s-overflow-your-life-until-you’re-ill way, but just that it won’t be that difficult to try and do a bit of reading or writing in the spare time that I do have.

After all, I have a limited amount of time here, I shouldn’t be wasting it.

I mean, at the moment things are a bit hectic because I’ve got four weeks to learn all my lines for our exam-play, KKP. Then there’s the English assignment that’s due in Week 9. But I feel like this week is going to be a good one for getting back on track, because I don’t have to go in to work at Costa until Saturday. I’ve decided that I’m going to write out a plan of what’s happening in the next few weeks, so that I can balance out my free time between doing work for Uni and also doing things I enjoy – for instance, if I manage to get the English assignment done by the end of next week, I’ll be able to enjoy myself, not get stressed, and then also focus on KKP when I need to.

Things have been so up in the air since I got to Uni, but I feel like I’m finally finding my feet again. It took a while, I got stressed and ill, had a lot of confused thoughts and late nights, but it’s looking good from here.