Being Self-Important

Well, it’s easy to see that last week was a complete blur in terms of things that happened and things I did. To think about the fact that this time last week (11PM Sunday Night) I was lying on the floor in Bentley’s brother’s room next to a giggling Ry is weird enough, but there are so many things that have happened between then and now as well. For instance, today I went to the White Water Rafting centre in Cardiff where they have an artificial river with the Neenan family. They paid for my lunch and membership, which was very nice of them indeed, but I am babysitting for them on Thursday (and played babysitter today) so I guess it all balances out.

Tomorrow I am going to begin (not try and begin) a ‘new regime’. It’s not going to be exactly hardcore, but I really do want to try and shake off the extra unnecessary weight that I’ve had on since leaving AC. Plus, I want my curves back. Ry is always telling me I’m sexy, or beautiful, but I want to look in the mirror and see it for myself. Okay, maybe women are never truly happy with their body image but some mornings I do wake up and think “Damn, I look good today”.

The difference is, I want to wake up every day and think that.

So. It begins this way:

• Eat smaller portions (already eating pretty well).
• Don’t constantly snack.
• No booze until you get home (or occasional cider, that’s okay).
• No more chocolate Who am I kidding? We’re cutting down on it though.
• For one meal a day, do not have carbohydrates.
• Cut down on the red meats.
• Gym/Run/Swim at least once a day (no excuses for this one).
• 20 crunches every day (build this as it gets easier).
• Squat, my friend.
• Try and stretch, okay? Yoga poses, only takes 15 minutes. Do it when you wake up, and just before sleeping. Make sure your back doesn’t hurt.
• Take care of your skin. SUNCREAM.
• Shower, that’s always good.
• Keep everything nice and tidy in the room, do some laundry for god’s sake.
• Smile. Be happy. Just cause you miss him doesn’t mean you can’t be happy in yourself.
• Make sure to be centred. Breathe. Enjoy the environment.
• Read.
• Go for walks.
• Listen to music.
• Relax. Don’t stress.
• But also do work harder to find that job. Just be more proactive about life.
It will take a while, but I know that there are definitely lifestyle changes that I need to make, so this is a list of small things that will probably help. Tomorrow, I will start with a few of these, and gradually over the next week try to pick up more and more. We’ll see how it goes.