Almost One Month Later

Several things have happened since I last posted - not that it matters how much time there is between posts, but I started this blog for a reason and mean to keep it going, not just leave it after a couple (or 50) posts and never look at it again.

It’s just that I have had an extremely busy month. I have finished my IB exams. I’ve graduated from High School. I’ve gotten stupidly drunk, cried my eyes out, stayed up all night, visited fields at three in the morning, written letters and in yearbooks, packed up posters that I’ve had on walls for two years, moved out of a room that has been on my home for two years, and said good bye to friends who I potentially will never see again. At least, not for a long time.

That kinda takes it out of a person. I think that also, considering all the other things that have been going on, I haven’t had the time to really think about AC. Leaving AC. Having friends disappear off to other continents. People keep asking me how I am, and I just say: Happy.

That’s the thing – I am very happy at the moment, but probably because I’ve pushed all the pensiveness away for the time being. I can’t think too deeply because there’s not enough time to. Either that, or I figure that by now I’m just good at goodbyes. I’ve done it so many times and I’ve come to the realisation that it doesn’t matter what country I’m in, and whether my friends are thousands of mines away or sitting right beside me – they’re still going to be my friends.

I’m doing AOC summer at the moment, working with kids, getting sun burnt, chilling out in the sun (whenever it’s there) with people. There’s no drama, no questioning my place, stature, thoughts, ability, or anything like that. No personal turmoil, no insecurities. This is how things are supposed to be, and I’m glad for the chance for it to happen with such a wonderful group of people and in the environment I love.

But right now I think I should go. It’s almost 8 in the evening, I need a shower, and then I’m going to watch a movie and potentially sleep.